Thursday, July 17, 2008
Always Tired lately
I'm really worn out. I don't know how women with traditional office jobs go back to work. I have it good. My job is flexible, I can take Alex to work with me. 2 days a week Alex goes to Parent's Day out, but he is at the church were I work, so I take him out to nurse. I am lucky, don't get me wrong. But Chris works out of town a lot, so sometimes is am lugging my 20 lbs ( i think he is that big, according to my parents scale today) 3 month old around alone. I can see know why and how you don't go back to work after having a baby. It is more work than I can ever imagine.
I know it was a God thing that I wound up back in little Rock. I would have never managed my last job with Alex. And now I know I am where I want to be, ministering to young people in my church. They inspire me.
Alex is having problems taking a bottle. My mom was successful today, but probably after Alex was really hungry. I am having to introduce it, b/c I am going to a wedding in Vegas in August and he really can't go. I would take him, but it is Vegas, the worst place to bring a baby. It isn't until labor day, but I don't want to leave him cold turkey. So we are practicing, him bottling, me pumping...like crazy. I hope it all works out. I am so nervous when I get back he will not want to nurse anymore, but I hope it works out. I am so nervous!!! If anyone has advice or has done this, let me know.
Well I should go to bed soon....talk to you later.
Cynthia
I know it was a God thing that I wound up back in little Rock. I would have never managed my last job with Alex. And now I know I am where I want to be, ministering to young people in my church. They inspire me.
Alex is having problems taking a bottle. My mom was successful today, but probably after Alex was really hungry. I am having to introduce it, b/c I am going to a wedding in Vegas in August and he really can't go. I would take him, but it is Vegas, the worst place to bring a baby. It isn't until labor day, but I don't want to leave him cold turkey. So we are practicing, him bottling, me pumping...like crazy. I hope it all works out. I am so nervous when I get back he will not want to nurse anymore, but I hope it works out. I am so nervous!!! If anyone has advice or has done this, let me know.
Well I should go to bed soon....talk to you later.
Cynthia
Sunday, July 13, 2008
This weekend...wedding and more!
I have to admit...I have a good baby! He traveled so well this weekend ( while I sat in back with him!). I am really worn out so I will probably elaborate another time, but Alex traveled to Collierville, TN to see his BB and Pap and then to STarkville, MS to a wedding.
Alex stayed with my in laws for 6 hours while we were at the rehearsal dinner. I was really nervous about leaving him since he doesn't take a bottle really well (partially it is b/c he has only taken a bottle like 4 times total before this weekend). He did great! It is good practice since Chris and I have to go to a wedding in Las Vegas on Labor weekend.
Alex also slept thru the wedding on Sat night and was perfectly adorable and agreeable around everyone this weekend!!!! I was so proud, he wasn't fussy at all. He cooed a lot and chuckled some!!!
Chris was so proud to show him off to all his best friends. I am never seen him so proud of everything. It was Chris's B-day Friday...so I know it made it a great b-day for him to introduce Alex to his friends.
I have really figured out that I am going to have a hard time leaving Alex with anyone. I really can't elaborate on that much more with out sounding to myself like a possessive crazy woman. I don't know, I am lucky I don't have to leave him everyday with a daycare. I would not be able to do it. I am so independent that I often feel cautious of help. I guess instead of feeling like people are trying to help to be helpful, but are offering or insisting on helping because they think I am unable to do it at all or myself or unable to do it as well as they may be able to. I know these are things I need to pray about or work on, but I think they are valid just the same. This probably all stems from my over criticism of myself and a Little nervous about everything I do. I will work on it! I just hope people understand...I feel guilty.
Alex stayed with my in laws for 6 hours while we were at the rehearsal dinner. I was really nervous about leaving him since he doesn't take a bottle really well (partially it is b/c he has only taken a bottle like 4 times total before this weekend). He did great! It is good practice since Chris and I have to go to a wedding in Las Vegas on Labor weekend.
Alex also slept thru the wedding on Sat night and was perfectly adorable and agreeable around everyone this weekend!!!! I was so proud, he wasn't fussy at all. He cooed a lot and chuckled some!!!
Chris was so proud to show him off to all his best friends. I am never seen him so proud of everything. It was Chris's B-day Friday...so I know it made it a great b-day for him to introduce Alex to his friends.
I have really figured out that I am going to have a hard time leaving Alex with anyone. I really can't elaborate on that much more with out sounding to myself like a possessive crazy woman. I don't know, I am lucky I don't have to leave him everyday with a daycare. I would not be able to do it. I am so independent that I often feel cautious of help. I guess instead of feeling like people are trying to help to be helpful, but are offering or insisting on helping because they think I am unable to do it at all or myself or unable to do it as well as they may be able to. I know these are things I need to pray about or work on, but I think they are valid just the same. This probably all stems from my over criticism of myself and a Little nervous about everything I do. I will work on it! I just hope people understand...I feel guilty.
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